I recently participated in a speed coaching circle (I both coached and received coaching) at a UK Conscious Capitalism event where this was the question at hand:
What does the revolutionary version of you look like?
The question struck me as an excellent one for a number of reasons. First, because I wanted to acknowledge, for myself, that the me of today is quite revolutionary compared with the me of eleven years ago.
The me of ten years ago had recently graduated law school but felt like a fake lawyer, with a real J.D., and instead felt a real artist, but with no paintings to show for it (yet).
I decided that to live with integrity and heal (I struggled with depression while in law school) I had to own my truth. I had to proceed forward by trusting that inner feeling that I had beautiful art within me, even if my attempts for the first five years yielded nothing that matched that inner feeling. I had decided that this was the way I wanted to live. I trusted that my life would somehow be greater, more meaningful, braver, more beautiful, more enriched – for me and by me- if I had faith and followed my heart.
Now I am very grateful to the me that stood in front of paper she’d taped to the garage wall, brush in hand, almost scared out of her mind because she thought she didn’t know what to do…but she just started doing the best she could. I am so grateful to that young woman because now, fast forward several years, and I’ve created many paintings that I love and that others love- and purchase as well.
Because I didn’t want to only paint, I wanted to create work that brought beauty and meaning to the lives of others – so much so that they pay me, and pay me well for it. For the past three years I’ve hit 9 out of 10 of the increased financial targets I’ve had for selling a painting, including easily breaking the $10K mark for a single painting, and I’m beginning to understand what Andy Warhol said when he said that “making money is an art form in itself.”
The other reason I loved that questions was because it helped me to understand and own the bigness of the energy and dreams. For me, contemplating this question is proving to be a necessary part of moving forward. I’ve been asking myself “What does the revolutionary version of me look like” over the past few weeks and have found it helpful to apply the question to considering all areas of my life – as an artist, a writer, a teacher/coach/mentor, a mother, a wife, a friend, a philanthropist. To my finances, physical and emotional health, intellect, and spirituality.
It was the perfect question for me at the perfect time (as so many of them are these days), and I wanted to share in case it’s the question you’ve been needing to ask yourself as well.
If you want to share what the Revolutionary You looks like, I would LOVE to hear from you! Please leave me a note in the comments below so we can have the conversation, and, perhaps, encourage and embolden one another with our creativity and courage.
I also want to share this thoughts and questions because I think it’s time we had more deep and meaningful conversations – and had them aloud, honestly, and with more people. I know I am hungry for this and I have a sense others are too – this, in fact – the conversations we have around the dinner table, with our friends, our partners, our colleagues, our neighbors, our children – could be part of the revolution we start.